Being Real

This morning I was talking to a friend of mine and she told me that

she had been reading my blog and she was looking to see if I had 

mentioned anything about my Mom's recent health scare.  I told my

friend Maria that no, I had not.  I said that I was trying to keep my

blog a happy place.  Maria's response was ...

"We are all human."

She is right.  I don't like to dwell on the negative here, but there

are times when we all have to face things that are difficult.  

Life happens, and it's not always rosy.

So as much as I want this blog to be a happy place for you to 

land from time to time, I can't pretend to be upbeat when I am

feeling scared or apprehensive.  Now I could just disappear for a bit,

but to be honest, this little blog has brought me through some sad

times.  It has been a place for me to escape my worries.

It's the place I go where I have control over the content.

So there I have said it.  I have been very worried for the past week.  My Mom

has some blood clots that could prove to be fatal.  She has chosen not to go on

conventional therapy because of the risks involved.  Her attitude is that

 she has lived a good long life and she wants whatever time she has left

to be happy and not to be visiting her doctor a couple of times per week.

It is her decision and she is being very firm about it.  

Sadness and fear comes into all of our lives at times.  While I am trying my

best to be strong, I too am human.  If I have been a bit elusive,  if I have not

visited you, it's not because I don't care.  I have been trying to adjust to

a new situation that I cannot control.  I'm just doing my best to

let go and let God take control for a change.   And He well knows that

it's not always easy for me to give up the reins.

Thanks for listening.

Big Hugs,

Susan and Bentley